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Hi! I am 20 years old, when I was 17 I got pregnant, I had sex with a guy who wasn't worthy but to me was the best person in the World.
It was very painful when I found out he already had a son with a woman and another kid with another woman. He was older than me and I loved him but when I told him I was late he said I was crazy and if I was pregnant it was my fault.
When he found out he insulted me and called me names, but then he said we would go to the doctor. He never, seriously, never earn a penny for the doctor, he was very selfish (instead of getting me something to eat he would eat all my food), he said he didn't have anything for me, not even a cent. One day he said he wouldn't go with me to the Doctor, he told a friend to go with me and since then I haven't seen him until today.
I started to feel bad, nauseous, my belly was showing and my mom found out , a lot of ideas crossed my mind, like killing myself. When my parents found out was very hard , nobody else knew, not even my brothers , they knew the guy who made me pregnant and only God knows what they would have done to him.
The truth is I was confused , I didn’t know if I should have the baby or not, when I was 5 months pregnant I started to feel the kicking , I talked to him , I ask him to tell me what to do with him. I feel very sad while I write this; I had a hysterectomy, like a small C section. I lost my baby and I lost him forever, you can't imagine the pain it causes me, and when I see the scar I feel very, very bad, I regret I did this, my parents are to blame too, they did all this, they never asked me, it is my fault too because I never said anything. I was a fool.
Whenever I see a kid I remember that night. My advice girls: DON'T DO IT, I regret it, I regret it very much, I killed my own son, my soul hurts.
ANSWER:
This invites us to meditate about the need to know yourself and become conscious of your own actions and not make the same mistakes again, mistakes that can only bring you painful consequences and Karma in this life or other lives.
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