My God is real…yes, I gave life.
My story is a wonderful gift from God.
In May, 2001 I became pregnant. I was living in a modeling environment, fashions, shows, castings, shootings, promotions; my weight was only 90 pounds and my major ambition: “to look good, not to gain weight”. My boyfriend was using condoms, but on that May 22, 2001, the condom broke. I knew at that very moment that I was pregnant.

I started to experience changes in my body: nauseas, dizziness; I felt sleepy and tired; I would tell myself: “it can’t be”. When I saw POSITIVE in the blood test I wanted to die, I screamed and cried, I didn’t want to have children, I didn’t want that baby, and I could not have that baby. I saw my entire life destroyed, my dreams shattered, my goals vanished, my body, my dreams of modeling, everything finished. But I found a solution: ABORTION.

So, one day I went to an abortion clinic. As soon as I arrived I felt a pain in my heart, an overwhelming maternal feeling. I could not stop crying and feeling hopeless. I started to beg forgiveness to God and to my baby for what I was about to do in that place. I wiped off my tears and filled in the required form. I felt chills, a terrible fear; I thought I was going to die in that place. But I though again: “I can’t have it”. I remember they called my name and I told to the secretary: “Before having the abortion, I would like to have an ultrasound made, to see for once … I don’t know, whatever I have in there”.

I changed my clothes for the clinic gowns and sat to wait in a sofa. Beside me there where other 6 women that were ready to commit the same crime that me. When my turn came, mi legs were trembling. I laid in a bed, two nurses totally cold- looking helped my in the procedure. Then, a tall man, rude, serious, a murderer; came into the room. He treated me badly from the beginning. As soon as he saw me, he commented: “I don’t like how this woman looks”. He gave me the instructions: “I am going to perform a vaginal exploration, so you will be able to see what you have inside, and I will see in what position it is to suction it with this instrument”. As soon as he introduced the tube to perform the vaginal exploration I complained about the pain. He rudely answered: “Dear, if this hurts, get prepared for what is coming after”. I wanted to leave, I was feeling bad, and I had a lot of pain. But I was already there and I was determined to do it, even with sorrow in my soul.

But because up there, there is a God that sees and knows everything, that doctor said: Are you sure you are pregnant? I answered: “Yes, I am”. He says: did you bring your test? He looked at the test and showing me the screen says: “there is nothing…I really don’t see anything….I see absolutely nothing and you are already one month pregnant…it is supposed to be visible; you have to wait more time”. I told him: “no problem, I will come later”. But as soon I left the clinic I though: “my God, what is this?”. Easy, God is so great that he didn’t let my baby to be visible, because my son had to be born.

The next day I visited a cousin who is a nurse and asked her to make me a sonogram; she took me to the hospital she was working at the time. I told her what had happened to me in that clinic. To my surprise, when the nurse put that sonogram machine in my abdomen, a small little thing beating showed up. It was my baby’s heart. I was able to see the little bag containing it…God is great!

I made the decision to continue with my pregnancy. On January 31 this year I had the happiest day of my life. I had my first son by cesarean section. That little human laying by my side was a very beautiful experience. He was born healthy, strong. Today that human being is the reason of my life. I love him with all my heart, he is the little person I love the most in this world, I would have never forgiven myself for murdering my son. I cry at nights when I see him sleeping and I remember what I was about to do to him.

My son is a happy boy, has always a smile in his face. He is the best gift God has given to me.

To all women that find themselves in a difficult situation right now, and are thinking in abortion: STOP! Don’t do it! Think first, analyze. Your baby is innocent, he or she didn’t ask to come to the world, give to him or to her the opportunity to live.

I could have gone back to that clinic but I didn’t do it because God didn’t allow it. A child is not a burden; burden will be carrying the guilt in your conscience because of murdering your own child, your own blood. We give life to innocent beings; God doesn’t give us loads that we are unable of carrying. And remember, make this sentence of mine your sentence too: “dark clouds won’t prevail eternally, the sun will bright again and the clouds will disappear”

I don’t care for modeling any more, I don’t care about the body, I live only for my son, to see him growing healthy and happy, and above all…..to lead him in the ways of God, the one who saved him while he was in my womb, and gave him life: God. God bless you. I hope my story helps you to go ahead saying: YES to life and NO to ABORTION.
Leslie, from Puerto Rico.

Debbie from US
I had a termination about 24 years ago, I'm finding my thoughts are consumed with so much guilt, I have spent so much time going over what I did, I can't live with this any more, it is eating me away, I don't know what gender my baby was or anything, I saw my baby I didn't know what to do, I was so scared, I relive that time and what I did, WHY DIDN'T ANYONE ASK ME HOW I WAS OR IF IT WAS WHAT I WANTED, I have read a lot about the effects of abortion, it was numbing to my soul, it was a whole new start to my sorrow, some of the information made so much sense as regards to the way my life has been over the years, I would love dearly to help others who have been or considering termination, I wish there had been someone for me, reading what others went through and how they felt has been a hard topic to take in but also has let me know I'm not on my own, it has openend up old scars and that hurts (it that my punishment) what I now, I guess I'm mixed up. BUT I remember and RE-live every day.
Debbie

Nora from Venezuela
I have a delayed period, and if I happen to be pregnant, I don’t want to have the baby. Tomorrow I will get a test. If pregnant, it would only be 15 days pregnancy. Is there a medicament to provoke myself an abortion before the pregnancy advances, and complicate things further?
NOTE FROM THE DIRECTOR: As we see, the victims of theses placer and passion adventures are the innocent aborted creatures.

Samara from Mexico.
I am a young woman who daily notices the children crossing by and playing. I remember also the day that I used pills to provoke myself an abortion. I remember it was very little and I regret having had the abortion. How would my son be like now? He or she would be with me and I would be happy, without the load of my guilt and the remorse that is killing me every passing day….

Gladys from Panama
I am woman of more than 30 years of age; what I experienced is back from when I was 22. I was dating a person with whom we had a lot in common. I started to have sexual relations when I was 18 years old and never took any precaution. I used to think that if I had not gotten pregnant before, maybe I was immune, or that it would never happen to me. But I was totally wrong. At 22 years old I started to feel certain discomfort, took myself a urine pregnancy test and it resulted negative. I was given many injections to get the period but nothing happened. At the end I made myself a blood test and the result was positive. It never crossed my mind that abortion was something cruel; I think due to my immaturity I did it. I remember I almost died, because I was already two months pregnant, my blood pressure went down.
When I recover myself I asked the doctor to show me what had happened. When I saw how I had destroyed what I had inside to pieces I started to cry. After that, the doctor told me that my womb had been harmed, and today I pay for the consequences of my immaturity; I have been unable to have a child. Because of this I am telling my story, so you don’t make the same error that I made. So you don’t abort now to regret it later.

Carmelita from Colombia.
I am 15 years old and I was pregnant from my boyfriend. Why I say “I was”? Because I kill him or her…Maybe many of you think it is a bit cruel to say it like that, but it is the truth. As a woman one thinks about having to live a bit more; if something is happening to us is because of someone who appeared one day, but it is not like that. I have for three days felt the biggest pain that I woman can feel. When I realized I was pregnant, I decided to “finish” the situation, because I didn’t have enough strength to face a situation like that, and I still feel I don’t have that kind of strength. I am a young woman with a future ahead of me; maybe some time from now I will regret this, but for the moment being I think a made the right decision.

NOTE FROM THE DIRECTOR: It is sad to consider right a decision to start a life taking before God’s eyes the death of a creature that is your own. The material success can’t be reached with death upfront of you, with the sacrifice of a child. Unfortunately in these times of most cruel materialism, passion is mistaken as love, and after the pleasure it comes the suffering.

Hi! I am Clarissa and I am feeling extremely bad...
He told me that he doesn’t want to have any commitment in this moment because he has not finished his university, we have nothing prepared to live together and are not prepared to be parents. I don’t know what to do now. I am….or better…. I made the worst mistake of my life: I am 5 weeks pregnant and one week ago I got an injection which would destroy the embryo in a term of 8 days and I would originate a bleeding. Eight days have passed and nothing has happened to me. Every day I go to bed and wake up thinking the same: how cruel I have been. I regret what I have done…I don’t know, maybe someone knows, how much that injection might have harmed my baby. I don’t want to lose it now, but I am afraid that he or she would have some kind of problem at birth because of what I did. If someone knows something, please, I need your help as soon as possible! My baby and myself will appreciate it so much.

Alma from México
I am a 20 years old woman and I am pregnant from a married man. The worst is that I didn’t know he was married, and married to my sister. He is 40 years. I don’t know what happened but I felt in love. Now that I am pregnant he blamed me as always: that I was not careful, that I did it on purpose. I didn’t. He doesn’t want the baby, his or her own child, he wants me to have an abortion and I don’t want that. I tried in the beginning, but my child saved him or herself and is fine, thanks to God.
I think abortion is not the solution, I have to face whatever comes the way now, and not because of that I am going to kill the baby. When I phone for help he never answers back. I am always crying, my parents don’t know, I feel terribly bad, I don’t know what to do but I want to have my child no matter what. I am not going to say who is the father, so I will be able to live with my child.